Enjoying Life This Much
By Grace Aprilia Helena 12:48 AM Curhat, Daily Life, Problem Settlement, Random Things
Well, selama ini aku ternyata terjebak sama dunia social media. Dunia yang penuh fantasi, komunikasi virtual canggih tanpa batas waktu dan tempat, obrolan dan curhatan yang asik.
Hahahaha yap..
Inget di post-post sebelumnya aku memutuskan vakum dari Twitter sama Facebook. Well.. kenapa ?? Keliatannya kaya biksu yang ingin bertapa dan melarikan diri dari kota metropolitan ya ?
Banyak faktor dan hal yang ngebuat aku ingin ngejauh dari Twitter dan Facebook untuk sementara waktu. Sambil dengerin lagu The Civil Wars yang Falling, aku bakal ceritain semuanya.
Well, social media selama ini sukses ngebuat aku terkurung bagaikan katak dalam tempurung. You know ? tiap hari tangan aku gabisa lepas dari Handphone Android aku. Buka Phone Lock - App Drawer - Search - Opera Mini - Facebook / Twitter.. itu kayanya tiap jam wajib dilakuin. Bagaikan seorang inferi yang terkena imperius curse yang dilemparkan oleh You Know Who a.k.a Lord Voldemort a.k.a Tom Riddle *HarryPotterBanget* hahaha.Tapi memang bener ko.. rasanya kaya candu sama dua Social Media tersebut. Believe me.. you're going to feel so damn free without those social medias. Contohnya : Seorang Grace Aprilia Helena yang kurang lebih 5 hari yang lalu gaada waktu untuk menikmati nonton DVD, browsing something scientific, nikmatin banyak lagu, bantuin mama, Blogging, olahraga lebih dll.. biasanya aku yang 5 hari yang lalu itu kalo ga social media ya Photoshop lagi ya Photoshop lagi. Tapi sekarang aku lebih punya banyak waktu untuk berada di luar beberapa hal gila tersebut. Rasanya " I found my old self again " .
The first time I did it, I did have a strong will to ignore these sounds in my head to reactivate my accounts. But the next 2 days.. those were the hardest days to hold myself. As the time went by I didn't care much about my accounts.
Now aku punya banyak waktu untuk ngepost di Blog yang sempat kusam ini. Now aku udah selesai nonton 5 Film dalam 2 hari. Dan tadi aku baru aja nonton The Hunger Games, A Walk To Remember dan baruuuu banget tadi Twilight Breaking Dawn Part II lengkap ditemani satu bar Soyjoy yang rasa Strawberry ditengah gelapnya kamar dan diatas nyamannya tempat tidur menjelang subuh ini.
Memang rasanya gimanaa gituu ngilang dari peradaban yang dimana kita nyaman berada. Rasa kangen sama temen-temen pasti ada. But it's better to learn controlling myself now than later. Pengendalian diri itu perlu.. gimanapun juga aku yang harus ngendaliin Social Media.. bukan sebaliknya.
Dan besok harus siap-siap ngerjain kerjaan seorang anggota MCC : Edit foto prakerin. Wow.. -_- wish me luck guys.. !! :D
Hahahaha yap..
Inget di post-post sebelumnya aku memutuskan vakum dari Twitter sama Facebook. Well.. kenapa ?? Keliatannya kaya biksu yang ingin bertapa dan melarikan diri dari kota metropolitan ya ?
Banyak faktor dan hal yang ngebuat aku ingin ngejauh dari Twitter dan Facebook untuk sementara waktu. Sambil dengerin lagu The Civil Wars yang Falling, aku bakal ceritain semuanya.
Well, social media selama ini sukses ngebuat aku terkurung bagaikan katak dalam tempurung. You know ? tiap hari tangan aku gabisa lepas dari Handphone Android aku. Buka Phone Lock - App Drawer - Search - Opera Mini - Facebook / Twitter.. itu kayanya tiap jam wajib dilakuin. Bagaikan seorang inferi yang terkena imperius curse yang dilemparkan oleh You Know Who a.k.a Lord Voldemort a.k.a Tom Riddle *HarryPotterBanget* hahaha.Tapi memang bener ko.. rasanya kaya candu sama dua Social Media tersebut. Believe me.. you're going to feel so damn free without those social medias. Contohnya : Seorang Grace Aprilia Helena yang kurang lebih 5 hari yang lalu gaada waktu untuk menikmati nonton DVD, browsing something scientific, nikmatin banyak lagu, bantuin mama, Blogging, olahraga lebih dll.. biasanya aku yang 5 hari yang lalu itu kalo ga social media ya Photoshop lagi ya Photoshop lagi. Tapi sekarang aku lebih punya banyak waktu untuk berada di luar beberapa hal gila tersebut. Rasanya " I found my old self again " .
The first time I did it, I did have a strong will to ignore these sounds in my head to reactivate my accounts. But the next 2 days.. those were the hardest days to hold myself. As the time went by I didn't care much about my accounts.
Now aku punya banyak waktu untuk ngepost di Blog yang sempat kusam ini. Now aku udah selesai nonton 5 Film dalam 2 hari. Dan tadi aku baru aja nonton The Hunger Games, A Walk To Remember dan baruuuu banget tadi Twilight Breaking Dawn Part II lengkap ditemani satu bar Soyjoy yang rasa Strawberry ditengah gelapnya kamar dan diatas nyamannya tempat tidur menjelang subuh ini.
Memang rasanya gimanaa gituu ngilang dari peradaban yang dimana kita nyaman berada. Rasa kangen sama temen-temen pasti ada. But it's better to learn controlling myself now than later. Pengendalian diri itu perlu.. gimanapun juga aku yang harus ngendaliin Social Media.. bukan sebaliknya.
Dan besok harus siap-siap ngerjain kerjaan seorang anggota MCC : Edit foto prakerin. Wow.. -_- wish me luck guys.. !! :D
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Cry ( By : Mandy Moore )
By Grace Aprilia Helena 11:05 PM Curhat, Flashback, Music
So One day I found this song.. then today I finally watched the movie.. :'D
And I couldn't help but cry.. :')
It's Cry By : Mandy Moore and the movie's name is A Walk To Remember..
Here's the song :
Cry ( By : Mandy Moore )
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
All right...
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
And I couldn't help but cry.. :')
It's Cry By : Mandy Moore and the movie's name is A Walk To Remember..
Here's the song :
Cry ( By : Mandy Moore )
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
All right...
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
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Bangun di pagi hari dengan sejumlah sms dan omelan mama yang menggema di sebuah rumah di kota Bandung.
Then I realized..
IT'S CHRISTMAS !!
Well, sekarang otw mau ke rumah nenek tercinta.. :D
Tiap taun udah kaya gini adat keluarga mama.. Keluarga Silalahi Sihaloho.. :D
Well, memang acara keluarga sederhana..
Tapi kebersamaannya ituloh..
Dan jangan lupa makanannya.. :9
Arsik..
Kacang Goreng (Favorit)..
Dll.. ><
Originally made by my Granny.. :D
Then I realized..
IT'S CHRISTMAS !!
Well, sekarang otw mau ke rumah nenek tercinta.. :D
Tiap taun udah kaya gini adat keluarga mama.. Keluarga Silalahi Sihaloho.. :D
Well, memang acara keluarga sederhana..
Tapi kebersamaannya ituloh..
Dan jangan lupa makanannya.. :9
Arsik..
Kacang Goreng (Favorit)..
Dll.. ><
Originally made by my Granny.. :D
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Feared Fear
By Grace Aprilia Helena 12:35 AM Daily Life, Problem Settlement
One of my most feared fears, Is to face the reality and all these insanities. I know.. I'm such a coward for not accepting the reality in front of me. My mind keep on making reasons. I remember this song whenever I'm on my fatal stage..
FAVOR ( By : True Worshippers )
Verse 1:
There is a song in every silence
There is a dawn in every darkness
There is a hope in every pain
There is a spring in every winter
Even in doubt there is believing
Through every season
You are near
Chorus:
Oh Your favor
and Your grace Lord
Last a lifetime
Last a lifetime
Verse 2:
You satisfy our deepest hunger
You broke the bond and set us free
You gave us life eternally
Jesus the name that calms our fears
Only in You our sorrows cease
Your love has won and now we see
Back to Chorus
Vamp:
Hallelujah
You are faithful
You are faithful'
It strengthens me.. yes.. this verse.. :
The first verse's point is :
There's a rainbow after this rain..
Too connotative ?
Well.. in another words :
There's a settlement after problems..
The wall appears.. but there's always a way to demolish it..
All these these feelings I recently felt... are just some of God's uniquely awesome ways to shape me. Though It hurts.. like hell.. like the end of the world has came.. like being stabbed right on my chest.
God.. you are sure more than capable to broke this bond that binds me too overly tight. Remember when You healed me in my 4th year of Elementary School. When doctors said that It was impossible for me to live although if I live, I'm going to be an idiot. But You prove them wrong.. You gave my Dad power.. You gave Your promise in Psalms41:4. Now I have to deal with these things... :') I believe You are more than capable.. You hear my prayer.. and answer it even before I pray. You know my tears before they fall.. You know all hidden things in my heart.. that I don't even know. These things are too much painful for me to bear.. ( According to my human POV ). But You said that.. You would never give more than I could bear. So I decided to believe Your words over my feelings. Sometimes I become such an arrogant human being. But You forgive.. You understand.. unlike those other people.. You heal me.. You renew me. There's nothing better to ask from You.. Your presence.. Your love.. It was all that strengthen me through this.
FAVOR ( By : True Worshippers )
Verse 1:
There is a song in every silence
There is a dawn in every darkness
There is a hope in every pain
There is a spring in every winter
Even in doubt there is believing
Through every season
You are near
Chorus:
Oh Your favor
and Your grace Lord
Last a lifetime
Last a lifetime
Verse 2:
You satisfy our deepest hunger
You broke the bond and set us free
You gave us life eternally
Jesus the name that calms our fears
Only in You our sorrows cease
Your love has won and now we see
Back to Chorus
Vamp:
Hallelujah
You are faithful
You are faithful'
It strengthens me.. yes.. this verse.. :
There is a song in every silenceand this one :
There is a dawn in every darkness
There is a hope in every pain
There is a spring in every winter
Even in doubt there is believing
Through every season
You are near
You satisfy our deepest hungerI'm just being a completely idiot in facing such a problem like this. I wonder why did God gave me this kind of heart ?? If I could choose.. I would choose my own path.
You broke the bond and set us free
You gave us life eternally
Jesus the name that calms our fears
Only in You our sorrows cease
Your love has won and now we see
The first verse's point is :
There's a rainbow after this rain..
Too connotative ?
Well.. in another words :
There's a settlement after problems..
The wall appears.. but there's always a way to demolish it..
All these these feelings I recently felt... are just some of God's uniquely awesome ways to shape me. Though It hurts.. like hell.. like the end of the world has came.. like being stabbed right on my chest.
God.. you are sure more than capable to broke this bond that binds me too overly tight. Remember when You healed me in my 4th year of Elementary School. When doctors said that It was impossible for me to live although if I live, I'm going to be an idiot. But You prove them wrong.. You gave my Dad power.. You gave Your promise in Psalms41:4. Now I have to deal with these things... :') I believe You are more than capable.. You hear my prayer.. and answer it even before I pray. You know my tears before they fall.. You know all hidden things in my heart.. that I don't even know. These things are too much painful for me to bear.. ( According to my human POV ). But You said that.. You would never give more than I could bear. So I decided to believe Your words over my feelings. Sometimes I become such an arrogant human being. But You forgive.. You understand.. unlike those other people.. You heal me.. You renew me. There's nothing better to ask from You.. Your presence.. Your love.. It was all that strengthen me through this.
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Daily post !! :D
By Grace Aprilia Helena 5:47 PM Curhat, Daily Life
Sebentar lagi PKL.. atau yang biasa disebut Praktik Kerja Lapangan.. :)
Hmm...
Gakerasa waktu berlalu dengan sangaaat cepat.. :')
Kalo diliat dari tahun 2011 kemarin itu... rasanya.... :'(
KENAPA CEPAT BANGET YA TUHAAAN ??? !!!!!
Can't I just stop growing up ??
Satu hari aku merenung di kamar dan nutup mata..
Semua memori sama guru.. orang tua.. temen.. dan orang-orang spesial di kehidupan aku mulai terputar..
Aku cuman bisa nangis.. :')
Kenapa harus cepet banget.. ??
Tinggal 1 setengah tahun lagi aku di SMK.. dan setelahnya.. kalo Tuhan berkenan...
Kuliah... Kerja... Menikah.. Punya anak.. Punya cucu.. Back to the earth..
Mungkin orang-orang mikir aku lebay karena udah mikir sampai segitunya..
Bukannya aku ga ngelakuin Firman Tuhan yang " Jangan Khawatir " ..
Keluar dari SMK means.. I'm no longer a teenager..
Gaada lagi seragam.. Goodbye buat PSSK.. Goodbye buat guru-guru..
Dan.. perpisahan... :')
Aku bertumbuh.. memang manusia harus bertumbuh.. :)
Ini berarti aku keluar dari zona nyaman aku...
Do I really need to grow up ? :'D
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December..
I can hear the clicking and the clacking of the clock..
Where the lights glisten around the tree..
Where the snow shows itself without any shame..
But for this girl..
December..
Where.. the grasses were green.. the skies were blue..
And there was a bell.. that didn't jingle that time..
On that little stair..
Laughter.. smile.. were replaced by tears..
And the song of sorrow...
The little thing that affected the present..
A lesson that was taught for.. this girl.. in the present time..
It was one and nine.. one and two.. twenty and eleven..
Where the Christmas atmosphere should be the one to be felt..
But last December.. last Christmas.. was.............................
Waved me goodbye.. without any second word.. then went... away..
More than 365 days.. and I can still recall it all..
Smiling like an idiot when December comes...
Inhale and exhale...
This sinking feeling...
Let all these memories hold you close no matter where you are..
This is something about December..
I can hear the clicking and the clacking of the clock..
Where the lights glisten around the tree..
Where the snow shows itself without any shame..
But for this girl..
December..
Where.. the grasses were green.. the skies were blue..
And there was a bell.. that didn't jingle that time..
On that little stair..
Laughter.. smile.. were replaced by tears..
And the song of sorrow...
The little thing that affected the present..
A lesson that was taught for.. this girl.. in the present time..
It was one and nine.. one and two.. twenty and eleven..
Where the Christmas atmosphere should be the one to be felt..
But last December.. last Christmas.. was.............................
Waved me goodbye.. without any second word.. then went... away..
More than 365 days.. and I can still recall it all..
Smiling like an idiot when December comes...
Inhale and exhale...
This sinking feeling...
Let all these memories hold you close no matter where you are..
This is something about December..
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Day 1 without social media... :)
It went well.. :) seriously.. hahahaha...
I feel so much lighter than ever...
But I admit that holding an urge to open Social Media is hard enough to do.. ._.
Especially a longing that came so suddenly..
A longing for some special people in it..
But luckily I was not stupid enough to follow that urge..
I know that it will hurt me.. I know that it will send me into the deeper hole..
I know that it will sink my feelings..
So this is the best thing that I can do for a while...
Social Media is such a chain that binds my brain..
3 months plus 2 weeks without them... without the people in my community..
Well, I don't know whether I really can do this or not..
But honestly I want to do this so much..
So there's no chance for another stupid thought.. :)
It went well.. :) seriously.. hahahaha...
I feel so much lighter than ever...
But I admit that holding an urge to open Social Media is hard enough to do.. ._.
Especially a longing that came so suddenly..
A longing for some special people in it..
But luckily I was not stupid enough to follow that urge..
I know that it will hurt me.. I know that it will send me into the deeper hole..
I know that it will sink my feelings..
So this is the best thing that I can do for a while...
Social Media is such a chain that binds my brain..
3 months plus 2 weeks without them... without the people in my community..
Well, I don't know whether I really can do this or not..
But honestly I want to do this so much..
So there's no chance for another stupid thought.. :)
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Getting fed up of Twitter and Facebook
By Grace Aprilia Helena 12:41 AM Curhat, Daily Life, Random Things
I'm Feeling so damn tired because of these social medias... -_-
Lots of dramas.. Lots of energy are wasted..
So I decided to close my account..
Regarding myself is tired enough consuming thindgs that shouldn't be consumed by this brain..
I chose to leave and live happily..
Lots of dramas.. Lots of energy are wasted..
So I decided to close my account..
Regarding myself is tired enough consuming thindgs that shouldn't be consumed by this brain..
I chose to leave and live happily..
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2013 and ??
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:10 PM Curhat, Daily Life, Faith, Random Things
As I felt the breeze of the night wind.. running through my hair.. I closed my eyes..
2013... yes.. we're walking or maybe even running to 2013..
It means..
" Growing up... "
Realizing that so many things happened in 2012..
This is the real world.. this is the reality..
Things that had taught me lessons that I would never forget..
Little by little.. slowly but sure...
I'm growing older.. I'm going to leave all these things..
Well the Master's hands would never get wrong in pouring the wine..
From vessel into another vessel..
So it becomes the purest.. and the richest wine..
Yeah.. it takes a whole lifetime for me to reach this point..
The problems that appeared on my way..
Things that I have to bear all these times..
The tears and scars that are..
Those are the vessels where I was poured in..
So am I going to be poured into another vessel ?? in this 2013 ??
Reading the Words...Psalms103:3-4
2013... yes.. we're walking or maybe even running to 2013..
It means..
" Growing up... "
Realizing that so many things happened in 2012..
This is the real world.. this is the reality..
Things that had taught me lessons that I would never forget..
Little by little.. slowly but sure...
I'm growing older.. I'm going to leave all these things..
Well the Master's hands would never get wrong in pouring the wine..
From vessel into another vessel..
So it becomes the purest.. and the richest wine..
Yeah.. it takes a whole lifetime for me to reach this point..
The problems that appeared on my way..
Things that I have to bear all these times..
The tears and scars that are..
Those are the vessels where I was poured in..
So am I going to be poured into another vessel ?? in this 2013 ??
Reading the Words...Psalms103:3-4
" 4Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;
5Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's. "
That my youth is renewed like the eagle's.. :'D
These beautiful verses was given in late November..
Whenever I was unsure of something..
Whenever I was sooo damn broken..
Like the eagle's.. :)
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Truth is..
By Grace Aprilia Helena 6:45 PM Curhat, Daily Life, Gajelas, Problem Settlement, Random Things
It was that place again..
Where the chairs were perfectly arranged...
That room..
I sat down...
My mind didn't care about it..
But my heart did..
It yearned for your presence..
The whispers.. the guitar strums..
Those faces were just as happy as usual...
My heart wandered through this..
Then you suddenly came.. with a guitar on your back..
As usual..
Relaxed for a while..
These eyes stole some glances of you..
Bitter smiles and laughters...
Tried to make myself as happy as I could..
Covered it all..
Covered the longing..
The moment ended..
No shaking hands..
No small conversation..
I walked away..
Where the chairs were perfectly arranged...
That room..
I sat down...
My mind didn't care about it..
But my heart did..
It yearned for your presence..
The whispers.. the guitar strums..
Those faces were just as happy as usual...
My heart wandered through this..
Then you suddenly came.. with a guitar on your back..
As usual..
Relaxed for a while..
These eyes stole some glances of you..
Bitter smiles and laughters...
Tried to make myself as happy as I could..
Covered it all..
Covered the longing..
The moment ended..
No shaking hands..
No small conversation..
I walked away..
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Stay Still
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:33 PM Curhat, Daily Life, Flashback, Gajelas
Step by step..
Inhale... then exhale...
I just want to close my eyes from the world.. for a while..
Keep these songs dancing in my ears..
It's a fight..
Between heart and mind..
It's a fight..
Between tears and laughter..
These senses are distracted..
They keep on staying still..
No movement..
Grab it.. grab it all..
Don't give me back..
Until nothing left..
Please..
Inhale... then exhale...
I just want to close my eyes from the world.. for a while..
Keep these songs dancing in my ears..
It's a fight..
Between heart and mind..
It's a fight..
Between tears and laughter..
These senses are distracted..
They keep on staying still..
No movement..
Grab it.. grab it all..
Don't give me back..
Until nothing left..
Please..
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Unconvinced
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:16 PM Curhat, Daily Life, Flashback, Gajelas
Seems like the stars agree on the same thing as me..
Looking through the sky up to infinity..
I’m fragile yet speechless..
Wondering why must it be so hard to keep walking.. ?
I know it’s dangerous.. forbidden..
Sweet yet painful..
Like a poison that kills slowly..
I’m sleepwalking..
Mostly because I can’t get out of this dream..
Can’t decide if it’s worth or not..
For my tears to fall..
Irrational.. Reckless..
Or I can say.. Masochist ?
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Past Few Months
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:30 AM Daily Life, Random Things, Xperia
Well holla Bloggerville !! :D
It's been a long time without posting.. :'D
Mau cerita banyaaak banget banget banget tentang my life in past few months... -_-v wehehe
Intinya banyak kejadian yang ngelatih dan nguatin mental.. :)
mau itu berhubungan dengan dia, dia, ataupun dia.. hahaha (apasih gee ? -_-)
Dimulai dengan friksi yang terjadi di komunitas aku beberapa bulan yang lalu.
Well, waktu itu aku ada ditengh-tengah dua kubu tersebut.. -_-
bisa dibilang masalahnya gaje alias gajelas sih..
Tapi kedua belah pihak sama-sama punya pride yang tinggi..Tapi ya puji Tuhan akhirnya friksi itu berakhir dengan sendirinya.. :D
Memusingkan dan membingungkan banget berada ditengah kedua kubu tersebut..
Satu kubu terdiri dari orang-orang yang berarti banget dalam kehidupan aku..
Sedangkan kubu lain ada orang yang selalu ada dengerin curhatan-curhatan geje aku.. nampung itu semua dan ngasih saran yang tegas sama aku..
Setelah permasalahan friksi tersebut.. hmm.. berlanjut ke Cross Country..
Well.. no comment tentang CC tersebut.. yang jelas sih asik dan melelahkan.. :D
Dan sekarang... dalam suasana menjelang libur di SMK 3 ngecharge laptop di depan ruang kost Pa Oleh sambil internetan.. hahaha..
As time passed by.. I realized I became stronger and stronger...
Ditambah lagi dibangun dengan teman-teman se-komunitas aku yang saling nguatin, ngedukung dan ngedoain.. :)
Meski mungkin ada yang secara gajelas menyimpan kebencian yang terpendam.. -_-
Yasudahlah.. :) It's life..and It's probably dynamic..
Dan akibat beberapa kejadian akhir-akhir ini..
Aku makin deket sama Tuhan,, makin sadar kalo tanpa Tuhan aku bener-bener bukan apa-apa..
Disaat aku ada permasalahan atau beban.. aku gabisa lagi bertahan... aku datang sama Tuhan dan sujud.. :) karena udah saking gakuatnya...
He's bigger and willing to take all my burdens..
Thank you for you all.. wonderful people in my life.. :') and most of all.. my God, Jesus Christ.. :'D
I'm nothing without you guys..
Love,
Gracelena
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Busy Days With Hopes
By Grace Aprilia Helena 8:58 AM Curhat, Daily Life, Faith
Well, days have been so busy lately... :)
God, sibuk banget.. banyak banget tantangan yang ngehadang...
Dari ini dari itu mulai putar-putar kesana kemari... :D
Tapi aku akuin itu adalah suatu hal yang menyenangkan meski fisik ini kayanya udah mau remuk gara-gara semua aktifitas itu..
Yang herannya lagi adalah cara Tuhan kasih aku keteguhan sama semangat dalam ngehadapin semua ini.. :)
Jesus you've been so good to me.. :)
Thanks for everything..
Every event in my life..
that leads me to this point..
I know that " This Too Shall Pass " ..
well yeah it's like a small cut of Yolanda Adams' Song.. :)
Whenever I'm down I always listen to this song.. :)
" This Too Shall Pass "
It brings out faith and hope..
People always link this thing to another topic that I don't really care too much lately..
Busy days with hopes...
With God in my every step has strengthen my heart...
With God who leads my way into this point...
God, sibuk banget.. banyak banget tantangan yang ngehadang...
Dari ini dari itu mulai putar-putar kesana kemari... :D
Tapi aku akuin itu adalah suatu hal yang menyenangkan meski fisik ini kayanya udah mau remuk gara-gara semua aktifitas itu..
Yang herannya lagi adalah cara Tuhan kasih aku keteguhan sama semangat dalam ngehadapin semua ini.. :)
Jesus you've been so good to me.. :)
Thanks for everything..
Every event in my life..
that leads me to this point..
I know that " This Too Shall Pass " ..
well yeah it's like a small cut of Yolanda Adams' Song.. :)
Whenever I'm down I always listen to this song.. :)
" This Too Shall Pass "
It brings out faith and hope..
People always link this thing to another topic that I don't really care too much lately..
Busy days with hopes...
With God in my every step has strengthen my heart...
With God who leads my way into this point...
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Whoa.. !! Busy Day !!
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:07 AM Daily Life, Gajelas, Random Things
Buenos Dias Fellas !!! :D
Gilaaa tugas akhir-akhir ini semakin mengGilaaa... :D whahahaha tapi aku akuin meski sebenernya jenuh dan cape.. itu adalah hal yang menyenangkan.. :D justru kalo gaada tugas sama kerjaan aku bingung mau ngelakuin apa.. -_-
oopsie.. OOT alert.. !
Back to the topic !! :D
Tugas yang harus diselesain antaranya adalah tugas FLASH bu SITI yang ngerjain CD INTERAKTIF !! terus IKLAN PA ISMAIL yang harus pake FLASH sama PINNACLE atau VEGAS atau AFTER EFFECT !!! ditambah lagi FOTO PRAKERIN yang masih terus BERJALAN dan HARUS DIEDIT !!!
Terus susulan-susulan yang harus DISUSUL karena DISPENSASI...
Yaaa itulah aktifitas anak MM yang super padat dan super sibuk.. :D
harust tetep bersyukur.. :) ngelakuin yang terbaik seperti buat Tuhan.. ^^
So bye Fellas.. :D
Gilaaa tugas akhir-akhir ini semakin mengGilaaa... :D whahahaha tapi aku akuin meski sebenernya jenuh dan cape.. itu adalah hal yang menyenangkan.. :D justru kalo gaada tugas sama kerjaan aku bingung mau ngelakuin apa.. -_-
oopsie.. OOT alert.. !
Back to the topic !! :D
Tugas yang harus diselesain antaranya adalah tugas FLASH bu SITI yang ngerjain CD INTERAKTIF !! terus IKLAN PA ISMAIL yang harus pake FLASH sama PINNACLE atau VEGAS atau AFTER EFFECT !!! ditambah lagi FOTO PRAKERIN yang masih terus BERJALAN dan HARUS DIEDIT !!!
Terus susulan-susulan yang harus DISUSUL karena DISPENSASI...
Yaaa itulah aktifitas anak MM yang super padat dan super sibuk.. :D
harust tetep bersyukur.. :) ngelakuin yang terbaik seperti buat Tuhan.. ^^
So bye Fellas.. :D
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A little ( or maybe big ) thing called love..
By Grace Aprilia Helena 12:59 AM Curhat, Daily Life, Flashback, Gajelas, Random Things
I remember the first time we met it was like a miracle..
Made our way downtown.. Holding hands together..
The sun shone.. And I had no reason to cry..
My phone was my world.. my world was you..
I didn't think that you'd mean this much to me..
Back to the tragedy..Thousands times..
You pull then push.. pull then push..
I didn't know why.. but I still feel the same..
Couldn't you see that you affect me this much ??
Sitting here.. seeing you there...
Blaming each other on social media..
Smiling so suddenly when I thought of you..
Put my headsets on.. Let Taylor Swift whispers..
Ignore the world..
I don't know how strong the power is..
I don't know either how to kick it out and throw it away..
It's beautiful yet painful..
I just wanna say I'm simply missing you..
But you will just ignore and come again sometimes..
Made our way downtown.. Holding hands together..
The sun shone.. And I had no reason to cry..
My phone was my world.. my world was you..
I didn't think that you'd mean this much to me..
Back to the tragedy..Thousands times..
You pull then push.. pull then push..
I didn't know why.. but I still feel the same..
Couldn't you see that you affect me this much ??
Sitting here.. seeing you there...
Blaming each other on social media..
Smiling so suddenly when I thought of you..
Put my headsets on.. Let Taylor Swift whispers..
Ignore the world..
I don't know how strong the power is..
I don't know either how to kick it out and throw it away..
It's beautiful yet painful..
I just wanna say I'm simply missing you..
But you will just ignore and come again sometimes..
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Awareness..
By Grace Aprilia Helena 11:52 PM
Aku senang.. Aku gembira... Aku bahagia...
Well, seringkali... Mama, ato orang-orang di sekitar aku marahin aku...
* lho ? marahin kenapa ?? *
Marahin.. yang sebetulnya sering aku gaseneng ketika aku dimarahin tersebut..
Mereka marahin aku karena aku ngelakuin hal-hal yang harusnya orang lain lakuin...
I don't know... When I was trapped in that kind of situation..
Aku selalu tergerak untuk bantu... apapun itu.. gausah disuruh... seperti untuk Tuhan..
Tapi hari ini aku sadar...
Betapa aku ngebuang semua tenaga itu... ( memang seperti untuk Tuhan ngelakuinnya )
Tanpa pernah disadari dan dihargai sedikitpun...
Aku baru ngerti yang mama aku omongin..
" Lakukan saja bagian kamu.. "
Aku ngebandel... dan terus ngelakuin yang bukan bagian aku...
Well, terkadang orang susah untuk ngeliat apa yang selama ini aku lakuin buat mereka... dan seringkali mereka melecehkan, bahkan mungkin salah sangka...
Aku selalu senang ketika aku bisa berguna bagi orang lain...
Aku senang karena nama Tuhan dipermuliakan..
Tapi mereka ga menghargai kasih karunia yang Tuhan kasih lewat aku..
Mereka melecehkan, mencibir, ngomongin, menusuk dari belakang...
Sehingga disinilah aku sekarang... baru sadar akan semuanya...
Aku buka blog ini dan buat post ketika aku ngerasa sedih banget...
" Tuhan, kasihan mereka.. beri mereka kesadaran "
Well, sementara ini aku menjauh dulu dari Facebook... hati aku ga enak...
Banyak hal yang sebenernya bikin aku sedih di dunia maya...
Oh God !!!! take my burdens please !!!!!!! take 'em all !!!!!!!
Seengganya dengan nulis post ini hati jadi leeeebihhh legaaaaaaaaaaaa.... :)
" Thx Jesus, for what had happened earlier... thx.. I know there's a good side behind all these messy stuffs.. Forgive me for being such a insensitive and egoistical person... And pity them.. God into Your hands I give all my burdens... I feel sorry for them... In the name of Jesus.. Amen "
Well, seringkali... Mama, ato orang-orang di sekitar aku marahin aku...
* lho ? marahin kenapa ?? *
Marahin.. yang sebetulnya sering aku gaseneng ketika aku dimarahin tersebut..
Mereka marahin aku karena aku ngelakuin hal-hal yang harusnya orang lain lakuin...
I don't know... When I was trapped in that kind of situation..
Aku selalu tergerak untuk bantu... apapun itu.. gausah disuruh... seperti untuk Tuhan..
Tapi hari ini aku sadar...
Betapa aku ngebuang semua tenaga itu... ( memang seperti untuk Tuhan ngelakuinnya )
Tanpa pernah disadari dan dihargai sedikitpun...
Aku baru ngerti yang mama aku omongin..
" Lakukan saja bagian kamu.. "
Aku ngebandel... dan terus ngelakuin yang bukan bagian aku...
Well, terkadang orang susah untuk ngeliat apa yang selama ini aku lakuin buat mereka... dan seringkali mereka melecehkan, bahkan mungkin salah sangka...
Aku selalu senang ketika aku bisa berguna bagi orang lain...
Aku senang karena nama Tuhan dipermuliakan..
Tapi mereka ga menghargai kasih karunia yang Tuhan kasih lewat aku..
Mereka melecehkan, mencibir, ngomongin, menusuk dari belakang...
Sehingga disinilah aku sekarang... baru sadar akan semuanya...
Aku buka blog ini dan buat post ketika aku ngerasa sedih banget...
" Tuhan, kasihan mereka.. beri mereka kesadaran "
Well, sementara ini aku menjauh dulu dari Facebook... hati aku ga enak...
Banyak hal yang sebenernya bikin aku sedih di dunia maya...
Oh God !!!! take my burdens please !!!!!!! take 'em all !!!!!!!
Seengganya dengan nulis post ini hati jadi leeeebihhh legaaaaaaaaaaaa.... :)
" Thx Jesus, for what had happened earlier... thx.. I know there's a good side behind all these messy stuffs.. Forgive me for being such a insensitive and egoistical person... And pity them.. God into Your hands I give all my burdens... I feel sorry for them... In the name of Jesus.. Amen "
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Totally Random ! *sigh*
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:55 PM
Talking about the title.. I bet you know what I mean... tee hee..
I just feel I need to write a post.. then here I am now..
Let's talk about my school first..
It's just like another crazy days there...
The teachers.. the students.. the cats.. *oops* the securities... are still the same..
The hell side is...
THE TEACHERS GAVE ME A FREAKING BUNCH OF ASSIGNMENTS TO DO !!!
Yeah.. it's a common nature of them.. because we begin to notice the " HOLIDAY " atmosphere in the air..
Videography.. Art.. Environmental Education.. Animation.. and yadda yadda yadda.. etc...
Then finally I started my Ballet and Hip-Hop exercise again.. which had ever delayed for years due to my weight surplus past days..
I did the lose weight program then I got my old body back.. * Proud of It *
Pirouettes, spins, jumps. splits, tuts, then I had an Idea for trying pointe myself.. kinda crazy but.. I wanna master it badly !!!
Then again.. I can feel my bones through my skin.. conclusion : I feel like I lose my weight again.. drastically.. I don't know... but I'm grateful that I can lose my weight that much.. It's horrible to have many gulps of fat pasta all over your body.. err... I feel lighter than before.. and the ballet thing helps me alot in sports..
The next thing... It's just about 2 weeks before youth camp.. it's a fun thing to do.. I mean preparing the preparation.. guiding the new freshmen... then gathering fund for the Youth Camp.. soo, wish me luck fellas !! :D
I just feel I need to write a post.. then here I am now..
Let's talk about my school first..
It's just like another crazy days there...
The teachers.. the students.. the cats.. *oops* the securities... are still the same..
The hell side is...
THE TEACHERS GAVE ME A FREAKING BUNCH OF ASSIGNMENTS TO DO !!!
Yeah.. it's a common nature of them.. because we begin to notice the " HOLIDAY " atmosphere in the air..
Videography.. Art.. Environmental Education.. Animation.. and yadda yadda yadda.. etc...
Then finally I started my Ballet and Hip-Hop exercise again.. which had ever delayed for years due to my weight surplus past days..
I did the lose weight program then I got my old body back.. * Proud of It *
Pirouettes, spins, jumps. splits, tuts, then I had an Idea for trying pointe myself.. kinda crazy but.. I wanna master it badly !!!
Then again.. I can feel my bones through my skin.. conclusion : I feel like I lose my weight again.. drastically.. I don't know... but I'm grateful that I can lose my weight that much.. It's horrible to have many gulps of fat pasta all over your body.. err... I feel lighter than before.. and the ballet thing helps me alot in sports..
The next thing... It's just about 2 weeks before youth camp.. it's a fun thing to do.. I mean preparing the preparation.. guiding the new freshmen... then gathering fund for the Youth Camp.. soo, wish me luck fellas !! :D
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creamychocotop(c) |
Okay.. I'm sitting here.. had just taken a bath and trying to write a post...
Well, I'm finally back in blogging :D
With the brand new name... and new interface...
" Creamychocotop "
Why must it be " Creamychocotop " ?
I don't know either.. that name flashed suddenly when I was editing my pinterest page.. ehehehe...
I got bored with gee gee gee stuffs.. :/
Maybe I'm growing up... :D tee hee...
Since dancing, and designing had been my " FTL " = " Favorite Thing Lists "
But it's still the old Grace anyway...
Well, I'm just growing up.. don't blame me.. blame the time... more than 1 month of becoming a hermit gave so much benefits from me... well I really mean it.. " becoming a hermit "...
Maybe you're wondering now..
" What's with hermit ?? "
" Are you trying to join the shaolin fighters just like on the Asian TV ? "
Well.. HELL NO !!! My daddy gave me some advices when something hit me hard in the past time... well, backstabber... traitor... etc.. ( everything that has the same meaning with those phrases )
It's better if I seal my lips and don't talk anything here...
Back to the story then..
So dad gave me an advice.. to be a hermit.. a hermit which avoids the backstabbers... well, It was just for about 1 month..
I used that 1 month to pray.. strengthen myself.. enrich my faith.. and think clearly..
I realized many things.. mistakes.. sadness.. sorrow.. happines.. stupidities.. clumsiness.. innocence...
I couldn't help but cry.. how people had mistaken me as a flirtatious bitch... meanwhile I have a good intention for sharing what I had... and how the person that has some " past moments " with me just babbled about some vital secrets...
Honestly.. it hurt like hell...
I was trying to hide the pain... and went through those hard times..
I was lucky to have my God, dad, and my besties around.. They supported me..
So, here's the updated me... the hermit thing had brought many positive things for me.. :)
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Brand New Days In School
By Grace Aprilia Helena 7:58 AM
Well, it's been a loooong looooong looooooooong time since the last post.. :D
Just wanting to write a bit post about my new days as a sophomore in 3 Vocational School..
Well, it's not really different from the freshman year..
Still the same class.. still the same place...
But the most exciting thing.. is... THE COOL SUBJECTS !!!
Especially the productive subjects !!!
It makes me love this school more.. :)
Just wanting to write a bit post about my new days as a sophomore in 3 Vocational School..
Well, it's not really different from the freshman year..
Still the same class.. still the same place...
But the most exciting thing.. is... THE COOL SUBJECTS !!!
Especially the productive subjects !!!
It makes me love this school more.. :)
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The First..
By Grace Aprilia Helena 3:27 PM
I sat in a room..
A crowded room..
Well, I was in my usual outfit..
Complete with glasses..
The leader started to lead.. on the stage.. i know..
I stared blankly.. Sleepy face.. Yawning..
I decided to look to the right...
My eyes started to bulge..
I saw you.. I saw you.. I saw you again...
Still with your nice and kind face..
Down to earth self..
You were taller than me..
I decided to say " Hi " and give you " five "...
We shook hands.. they were still as warm as 7 years ago..
Elementary school.. 3rd grade..
I remembered..
When you taught me about conversion.. kilometer.. meter.. etc..
When we were little..
You were a kind of person who always smiles to another people.. no matter who they are..
It's funny..
remembering our childhood... stupid.. yet silly.. :)
My first.. love..
A crowded room..
Well, I was in my usual outfit..
Complete with glasses..
The leader started to lead.. on the stage.. i know..
I stared blankly.. Sleepy face.. Yawning..
I decided to look to the right...
My eyes started to bulge..
I saw you.. I saw you.. I saw you again...
Still with your nice and kind face..
Down to earth self..
You were taller than me..
I decided to say " Hi " and give you " five "...
We shook hands.. they were still as warm as 7 years ago..
Elementary school.. 3rd grade..
I remembered..
When you taught me about conversion.. kilometer.. meter.. etc..
When we were little..
You were a kind of person who always smiles to another people.. no matter who they are..
It's funny..
remembering our childhood... stupid.. yet silly.. :)
My first.. love..
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Menangis
By Grace Aprilia Helena 3:14 PM
Kalau kamu tersakiti...
Apakah yang akan kamu lakukan ??
Well, Menangis.. manusia pada umumnya memilih untuk menangis...
Saat aku menangis..
Rasanya sakit... sangat sakit.. menyesakkan.. menyakitkan..
Daging aku ga terluka..
Tapi hati aku rasanya sakit..
Seperti ditusuk..
Dan itu rasanya berlipat-lipat dari sakit daging..
Itu wajar..
I feel a lot better after crying..
Jangan takut untuk menangis..
Ga ada manusia yang diciptakan untuk jadi manusia yang stoic..
Manusia punya emosi..
Jangan takut untuk menangis..
Apakah hal yang memalukan dari menangis ??
Kalau memang dalam konteks yang wajar..
Menangislah selagi bisa..
Apakah yang akan kamu lakukan ??
Well, Menangis.. manusia pada umumnya memilih untuk menangis...
Saat aku menangis..
Rasanya sakit... sangat sakit.. menyesakkan.. menyakitkan..
Daging aku ga terluka..
Tapi hati aku rasanya sakit..
Seperti ditusuk..
Dan itu rasanya berlipat-lipat dari sakit daging..
Itu wajar..
I feel a lot better after crying..
Jangan takut untuk menangis..
Ga ada manusia yang diciptakan untuk jadi manusia yang stoic..
Manusia punya emosi..
Jangan takut untuk menangis..
Apakah hal yang memalukan dari menangis ??
Kalau memang dalam konteks yang wajar..
Menangislah selagi bisa..
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Separation
By Grace Aprilia Helena 2:24 AM
A Middle schooler story..
I could still feel the sun that time..
In front of the school gate..
Suddenly the clouds went dark..
You were there.. much taller than me...
Your stupid silly face...
The rain started to pour..
We ran together..
Back to the school..
Back to the place where I first met you..
Freshness of rain.. I won't forget..
Coldness of water drops.. I won't forget..
You're there now..
Miles away from me..
Do you remember ?
The rain started to pour..
We ran together..
Back to the school..
Back to the place where I first met you..
Freshness of rain.. I won't forget..
Coldness of water drops.. I won't forget..
You're there now..
Miles away from me..
Do you remember ?
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Natsume Hyuuga... :(
By Grace Aprilia Helena 1:48 AM
Well, blogger..
Bagi yang belom tau Gakuen Alice.. pasti bukan seorang otaku.. :(
Manga ini udah sukses memikat hati aku dari aku kelas 6 SD.. bermula dari sebuah majalah Animonster yang isinya ada artikel tentang Gakuen Alice..
Baru tadi aku buka Mangafox.com.. dan.. :(
Natsume meninggal.......................
Ini cerita udah mau tamat.. :( aku ngeharepin bakal happy ending...
Nyesek banget bacanya...
Buat yang belom pernah baca... coba deh baca.. awalnya memang geje dan kocak... Kesini-kesininya jadi shoujo manga..
Natsume meninggal...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... :( Natsume.... Natsume Hyuuga.. Crimson Eyes.. Fire caster..
Natsume..
Bagi yang belom tau Gakuen Alice.. pasti bukan seorang otaku.. :(
Manga ini udah sukses memikat hati aku dari aku kelas 6 SD.. bermula dari sebuah majalah Animonster yang isinya ada artikel tentang Gakuen Alice..
Baru tadi aku buka Mangafox.com.. dan.. :(
Natsume meninggal.......................
Ini cerita udah mau tamat.. :( aku ngeharepin bakal happy ending...
Nyesek banget bacanya...
Buat yang belom pernah baca... coba deh baca.. awalnya memang geje dan kocak... Kesini-kesininya jadi shoujo manga..
Natsume meninggal...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... :( Natsume.... Natsume Hyuuga.. Crimson Eyes.. Fire caster..
Natsume..
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Pernah Merasa Seperti Ini ? Well.. Aku Juga Kok.. :) Share Sedikit Yuk ? :D
By Grace Aprilia Helena 11:37 PM
Hey kamu !!
.......................................
Iyaa.. kamuu... ;) yang sedang menghadap layar komputer ataupun handphone melihat blog ini...
Aku tahu.. benar.. aku tahu ko..
Jujur saja...
Kamu pernah merasa diri kamu payah.. tak berguna.. physically uninteresting.. bodoh.. desperate.. lemah.. korban bullying.. dll..
Well, here I have a story of mine.. :D
I'm not physically interesting.. aku secara fisik ga punya daya tarik..
well, dari atas... aku gapunya rambut lurus dan halus ataupun bergelombang dan tergerai dengan indah.. rambutku adalah mutan genetik... *hah ? :/*
Yap.. rambutku itu campuran antara lurus dan bergelombang.. -__-" sehingga bingung dimasukkan kategori mana..
Well, gara-gara rambut inilah aku sering dikritik mati-matian sama seluruh manusia yang pernah aku temuin..
Memang aku ga peduli banget mau rambut aku diapain.. diiket satu.. setengah.. di capit kaya ibu-ibu ke pasar.. itu semua gamasalah...
" Grace itu rambut kamu betulin atuuh.. menii.. digerai sana biar cantik... "
" Grace sini aku iketin... *iketiketiket* naahh... bagus kaaaan ?? " same aje.. -_-"
" Bla Bla Bla... "
Dan seterusnya..
Dari muka... well, I admit that I have a silly face... muka aku aneh, sobat.. bulat.. dengan mata panda *kebanyakan begadang -___-* dan bibir yang sedeng-sedeng aja.. terus hidung yaah yang sedeng-sedeng aja.. conclusion... I'm an absolute PLAIN..
I don't have a perfect Barbie face like Dakota Rose..
I don't have perfect lips..
I don't have perfect eyes.. with those circles under them..
I don't have perfect teeth.. you know.. I have a *the indonesian called it " gingsul " .. *
I'm not a pageant queen..
Dari badan..
Well, I admit I'm a bit overweighted.. aku rada gemuk.. :/ ato gemuk ?? hmm.. anda yang menilai.. wwkwkw..
kalo kata aku sedeng-sedeng rada besar dikit... akakakak...
Well, fellas.. I'm a geek... I'm different..
I love math and physics... a.k.a the most hated subjects in this world.. *according to a survey*
I'm a bookworm..
Aku bukan cewe yang perfect.. aku bukan cewe kebanyakan yang memiliki total kebalikan dari kepunyaan aku diatas.. bahkan aku pernah kehilangan seseorang gara-gara kekurangan aku itu...
Manusia memang ngeliat rupa..
Aku pernah ngerasa kaya gitu...
Dikritik banyak orang... tentang rambut, badan, atau hobi... awalnya aku sakit hati digituin.. minder..
Aku renungin sekali lagi.. dan aku pikir-pikir dengan matang..
dan akhirnya :
" AKU YANG GAPERNAH MIKIRIN PENAMPILAN AKU SENDIRI.. TERNYATA ORANG LAIN LEBIH CARE SAMA AKU.. MEREKA MERHATIIN AKU DARI ATAS SAMPAI BAWAH.. SEDETAIL-DETAILNYA BETAPA BERUNTUNGNYA AKU.. DIKELILINGI ORANG YANG CARE SAMA AKU.. "
Fellas, manusia ngeliat rupa... manusia ngeliat yang keliatan.. manusia menilai yang keliatan...
Manusia berasal dari dunia.. dan mereka menilai berdasarkan dunia...
Sedikit pengalaman.. seseorang yang berharga dan sangat aku sayangin di kehidupan aku pernha ninggalin aku gara-gara hal di atas..
Well, as I said before.. Manusia ngeliat rupa..
Manusia banyak yang ngejudge aku dari sisi kelemahan aku di atas... banyak sekali... bahkan sampai meninggalkan.. entah kemana...
Rasanya sakit fellas... I know.. aku sangat tau... sangat sangat tau... itu sangat sakit..
Tapi tadi sore.. aku dapet inspirasi...
Ketika ngeliat sebuah HDD External...
Teringat lagu ini :
" Dunia boleh katakan ku... tak berarti..
Dunia boleh katakan ku.. bukan siapa-siapa..
Tapi ku hanya dengar apa kata Yesus..
Dia katakan ku istimewa..
Ku istimewa.. krana aku milik-Nya..
Ku istimewa.. berharga dimata-Nya..
Ku istimewa.. Yesus mengasihiku..
Dia hadir dalam hidupku dan jadikanku istimewa "
Aku memang orang yang perasa.. gampang nangis..
Seketika aku inget lagu itu... aku inget... kalau... aku istimewa... aku nangis..
Tuhan Yesus ga pernah liat muka aku.. Batak atau Sunda.. Jawa atau Manado...
Dia gapernah protes tentang badan aku.. tentang rambut aku...
Aku istimewa... Biarkanlah saja orang yang menilai dan meninggalkan aku..
Aku punya Tuhan Yesus...
Kecantikan dan ketampanan sesungguhnya berasal dari hati..
Dari hatilah terpancar air kehidupan..
Sejelek-jelek apapun muka aku.. sebobrok-bobroknya sifat aku... sebusuk-busuknya aku..
Tetap Tuhan Yesus nerima aku apa adanya...
Seberdosa-berdosanya aku... Dia selalu mengerti.. dan mengampuni...
Disaat aku terpuruk gara-gara hal diatas..
Aku datang sebagai anak kecil... yang polos..
Datang ke hadirat Tuhan.. Aku cerita casciscus semuanya...
Air mata bercucuran...
Aku akuin aku ga mampu ngehadapin semua itu sendiri...
Tapi seketika.. Tuhan kasih aku kekuatan...
Tuhan isi aku lagi.. lagi.. dan lagi...
Semakin di bentuk.. dan dibentuk...
Kamu yang pernah merasa kaya aku di atas...
Tuhan Yesus adalah jawabannya..
Merasa jelek ?
Merasa ga berguna ?
Merasa gagal ?
Merasa ga mampu ?
Merasa bodoh ?
Merasa berengsek ?
Merasa bobrok ?
Tuhan Yesus yang akan menolong kamu dari keterpurukan... ( Yesaya 41 : 10 )
" ... Aku akan meneguhkan bahkan akan menolong Engkau... "
Akui bahwa kamu gamampu.. gamampu menghadapi sendiri... ( Amsal 3 : 5-6 )
Maka Tuhan akan meluruskan jalan kamu...
Dia bukan Tuhan yang melihat rupa..
Dia bukan Tuhan yang memandang harta...
Sekalipun manusia meninggalkan aku..
Dia sekali-kali tidak akan meninggalkan aku..
Sekalipun seorang ibu meninggalkan bayinya..
Dia sekali-kali tidak akan meninggalkan aku..
Manusia boleh menilai.. men-judge.. menista aku.. membuang aku karena kekurangan fisik aku...
Ingat.. hati adalah yang terpenting...
Hati yang tulus... hati yang mengasihi...
Hati yang berasal dari Tuhan..
Dan meski hati kamu pernah hancur..
Biarkan Tuhan yang sembuhkan...
Kamu istimewa...
.......................................
Iyaa.. kamuu... ;) yang sedang menghadap layar komputer ataupun handphone melihat blog ini...
Aku tahu.. benar.. aku tahu ko..
Jujur saja...
Kamu pernah merasa diri kamu payah.. tak berguna.. physically uninteresting.. bodoh.. desperate.. lemah.. korban bullying.. dll..
Well, here I have a story of mine.. :D
I'm not physically interesting.. aku secara fisik ga punya daya tarik..
well, dari atas... aku gapunya rambut lurus dan halus ataupun bergelombang dan tergerai dengan indah.. rambutku adalah mutan genetik... *hah ? :/*
Yap.. rambutku itu campuran antara lurus dan bergelombang.. -__-" sehingga bingung dimasukkan kategori mana..
Well, gara-gara rambut inilah aku sering dikritik mati-matian sama seluruh manusia yang pernah aku temuin..
Memang aku ga peduli banget mau rambut aku diapain.. diiket satu.. setengah.. di capit kaya ibu-ibu ke pasar.. itu semua gamasalah...
" Grace itu rambut kamu betulin atuuh.. menii.. digerai sana biar cantik... "
" Grace sini aku iketin... *iketiketiket* naahh... bagus kaaaan ?? " same aje.. -_-"
" Bla Bla Bla... "
Dan seterusnya..
Dari muka... well, I admit that I have a silly face... muka aku aneh, sobat.. bulat.. dengan mata panda *kebanyakan begadang -___-* dan bibir yang sedeng-sedeng aja.. terus hidung yaah yang sedeng-sedeng aja.. conclusion... I'm an absolute PLAIN..
I don't have a perfect Barbie face like Dakota Rose..
I don't have perfect lips..
I don't have perfect eyes.. with those circles under them..
I don't have perfect teeth.. you know.. I have a *the indonesian called it " gingsul " .. *
I'm not a pageant queen..
Dari badan..
Well, I admit I'm a bit overweighted.. aku rada gemuk.. :/ ato gemuk ?? hmm.. anda yang menilai.. wwkwkw..
kalo kata aku sedeng-sedeng rada besar dikit... akakakak...
Well, fellas.. I'm a geek... I'm different..
I love math and physics... a.k.a the most hated subjects in this world.. *according to a survey*
I'm a bookworm..
Aku bukan cewe yang perfect.. aku bukan cewe kebanyakan yang memiliki total kebalikan dari kepunyaan aku diatas.. bahkan aku pernah kehilangan seseorang gara-gara kekurangan aku itu...
Manusia memang ngeliat rupa..
Aku pernah ngerasa kaya gitu...
Dikritik banyak orang... tentang rambut, badan, atau hobi... awalnya aku sakit hati digituin.. minder..
Aku renungin sekali lagi.. dan aku pikir-pikir dengan matang..
dan akhirnya :
" AKU YANG GAPERNAH MIKIRIN PENAMPILAN AKU SENDIRI.. TERNYATA ORANG LAIN LEBIH CARE SAMA AKU.. MEREKA MERHATIIN AKU DARI ATAS SAMPAI BAWAH.. SEDETAIL-DETAILNYA BETAPA BERUNTUNGNYA AKU.. DIKELILINGI ORANG YANG CARE SAMA AKU.. "
Fellas, manusia ngeliat rupa... manusia ngeliat yang keliatan.. manusia menilai yang keliatan...
Manusia berasal dari dunia.. dan mereka menilai berdasarkan dunia...
Sedikit pengalaman.. seseorang yang berharga dan sangat aku sayangin di kehidupan aku pernha ninggalin aku gara-gara hal di atas..
Well, as I said before.. Manusia ngeliat rupa..
Manusia banyak yang ngejudge aku dari sisi kelemahan aku di atas... banyak sekali... bahkan sampai meninggalkan.. entah kemana...
Rasanya sakit fellas... I know.. aku sangat tau... sangat sangat tau... itu sangat sakit..
Tapi tadi sore.. aku dapet inspirasi...
Ketika ngeliat sebuah HDD External...
Teringat lagu ini :
" Dunia boleh katakan ku... tak berarti..
Dunia boleh katakan ku.. bukan siapa-siapa..
Tapi ku hanya dengar apa kata Yesus..
Dia katakan ku istimewa..
Ku istimewa.. krana aku milik-Nya..
Ku istimewa.. berharga dimata-Nya..
Ku istimewa.. Yesus mengasihiku..
Dia hadir dalam hidupku dan jadikanku istimewa "
Aku memang orang yang perasa.. gampang nangis..
Seketika aku inget lagu itu... aku inget... kalau... aku istimewa... aku nangis..
Tuhan Yesus ga pernah liat muka aku.. Batak atau Sunda.. Jawa atau Manado...
Dia gapernah protes tentang badan aku.. tentang rambut aku...
Aku istimewa... Biarkanlah saja orang yang menilai dan meninggalkan aku..
Aku punya Tuhan Yesus...
Kecantikan dan ketampanan sesungguhnya berasal dari hati..
Dari hatilah terpancar air kehidupan..
Sejelek-jelek apapun muka aku.. sebobrok-bobroknya sifat aku... sebusuk-busuknya aku..
Tetap Tuhan Yesus nerima aku apa adanya...
Seberdosa-berdosanya aku... Dia selalu mengerti.. dan mengampuni...
Disaat aku terpuruk gara-gara hal diatas..
Aku datang sebagai anak kecil... yang polos..
Datang ke hadirat Tuhan.. Aku cerita casciscus semuanya...
Air mata bercucuran...
Aku akuin aku ga mampu ngehadapin semua itu sendiri...
Tapi seketika.. Tuhan kasih aku kekuatan...
Tuhan isi aku lagi.. lagi.. dan lagi...
Semakin di bentuk.. dan dibentuk...
Kamu yang pernah merasa kaya aku di atas...
Tuhan Yesus adalah jawabannya..
Merasa jelek ?
Merasa ga berguna ?
Merasa gagal ?
Merasa ga mampu ?
Merasa bodoh ?
Merasa berengsek ?
Merasa bobrok ?
Tuhan Yesus yang akan menolong kamu dari keterpurukan... ( Yesaya 41 : 10 )
" ... Aku akan meneguhkan bahkan akan menolong Engkau... "
Akui bahwa kamu gamampu.. gamampu menghadapi sendiri... ( Amsal 3 : 5-6 )
Maka Tuhan akan meluruskan jalan kamu...
Dia bukan Tuhan yang melihat rupa..
Dia bukan Tuhan yang memandang harta...
Sekalipun manusia meninggalkan aku..
Dia sekali-kali tidak akan meninggalkan aku..
Sekalipun seorang ibu meninggalkan bayinya..
Dia sekali-kali tidak akan meninggalkan aku..
Manusia boleh menilai.. men-judge.. menista aku.. membuang aku karena kekurangan fisik aku...
Ingat.. hati adalah yang terpenting...
Hati yang tulus... hati yang mengasihi...
Hati yang berasal dari Tuhan..
Dan meski hati kamu pernah hancur..
Biarkan Tuhan yang sembuhkan...
Kamu istimewa...
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I wonder...
By Grace Aprilia Helena 11:22 PMI wonder....
How can the galaxy be this massive ??
No one.. No human.. No creature.. in this world which can exactly give an exact answer..
I wonder...
How do everything in this world can keep itself balanced ??
Creatures of Creation.. keep all the synergies... how ??
Amazing theorem about this universe...
Hemispheres...
Big bang theory..
Anti material substance...
Centripetal forces which causes centrifugal forces that make all the planets stay at their orbits with no mess..
With a help of gravitation.. without hitting one another.. without getting sucked by the sun... neatly arranged..
How can the numbers be an exact measurement for everything ??
We can put everything in numbers form..
How could the greeks think about all their Gods and Deities ??
Created some infamous stories..
Zeus.. Poseidon.. Hades.. Athena.. Aphrodite.. Ares.. Demeter.. Artemis..
Satyrs.. Centaurs.. Cerberus.. Nymphs.. Dragons.. other strange creatures out of our thought..
The Titans ?? The Olympians ??
Exactly describing human being.. detailed.. beautifully wrapped in this kind of story..
Those all bring influences for the future...
How could the Mayans predict the space ?? predict all the constellations ??
How could the Egyptians create the Pyramid.. ?? people that lived thousands years ago could make a modern concept about architecture.. giving influences for us.. the present people..
Louvré...
Constellations...
Aries.. Taurus.. Gemini.. Cancer.. Leo.. Virgo.. Libra.. Scorpio.. Sagittarius.. Capricorn.. Aquarius.. Pisces..
Ascendants.. Descendants.. Rising Points..
Asteroids..
Chiron.. Ceres.. Pallas.. Juno.. and Vesta...
Da Vinci.. Einstein.. Phytagoras.. Shakespeare.. Archimedes.. Pierre de Fermat..
Influential people..
Unbelievable..
I wonder.............................
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I LOVE ONE DIRECTION !!!!
By Grace Aprilia Helena 7:09 PM
I LOVE ONE DIRECTION !!!!
Got To Be You lyrics
By : One Direction
Liam: Girl I see it in your eyes you're disappointed
'Cause I'm the foolish one that you've anointed with your heart
I tore it apart
And girl what a mess I made upon your innocence
And no woman in the world deserves this
But here I am asking you for one more chance
Harry: Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade
'Cause there is nobody else
All: It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Liam: Now girl I hear it in your voice and how it trembles
When you speak to me I don't resemble, who I was
You've almost had enough
And your actions speak louder than words
And you're about to break from all you've heard
Don't be scared, I ain't going no where
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/o/one-direction-lyrics/got-to-be-you-lyrics.html -]
Zayn: I'll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else
All: It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Zayn: Oh girl, can we try one more, one more time?
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more time
I'll make it better
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more
Can we try one more time to make it all better?
Harry: Cos it's gotta be you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Only you
Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade
'Cause there is nobody else
It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Liam: Girl I see it in your eyes you're disappointed
'Cause I'm the foolish one that you've anointed with your heart
I tore it apart
And girl what a mess I made upon your innocence
And no woman in the world deserves this
But here I am asking you for one more chance
Harry: Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade
'Cause there is nobody else
All: It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Liam: Now girl I hear it in your voice and how it trembles
When you speak to me I don't resemble, who I was
You've almost had enough
And your actions speak louder than words
And you're about to break from all you've heard
Don't be scared, I ain't going no where
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/o/one-direction-lyrics/got-to-be-you-lyrics.html -]
Zayn: I'll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else
All: It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Zayn: Oh girl, can we try one more, one more time?
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more time
I'll make it better
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more
Can we try one more time to make it all better?
Harry: Cos it's gotta be you
It's gotta be you
Only you
Only you
Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade
'Cause there is nobody else
It's gotta be you
Only you
It's gotta be you
Only you
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Hello By : Mindless Behavior
By Grace Aprilia Helena 6:57 PM
Hello
By : Mindless Behavior
*Hello, Hello, Hello*
*VERSE 1*
When I first saw you
All I could say
OMG, How do I make her my baby
Plenty girls want me
But you ain't the same
( Run it back , handle that )
Bring my A-game
*BRIDGE*
Everybody knows the way to a girls heart is what you say
So what you say about us talking on another level?
If you like what you hear then you can holla back
Yeahhh
*CHORUS 1*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I can make it worth ya time
If I can get you on the line
*CHORUS 2*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I will never waste your time
If I can get you on the line
(You'll be mine)
*VERSE 2*
Pretty girl
Princess
No you don't know me
I'm tryna change that
Baby why don't we , get up this weekend
See us a movie
I know you got options
But baby I'm the real thing
*BRIDGE*
*CHORUS 1*
*CHORUS 2*
*VERSE 3*
And when I hit cha baby
I'll promise you gon' know when you get the real me
No more , no less
Just say you'll never disconnect
(Cause I won't have it)
(I'm not hanging up)
What you need
Is right here at your fingertips girl
Just dial 3 2 3 - 7 8 6 - 9 2 0 and 1
Reach out and touch me.....
All the girls in the world , thats going through it with me
Say Yeah , Yeah (Yeah Yeah)
All the fellas in the world thats going through it with me
Say Yeaahhh (Yeaahhh)
*CHORUS 1*
*CHORUS 2*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I will never waste ya time
(I just wanna get with you girl)
(If I can get you on the line)
(Guess what?)
You'll be mine...
--
(Mine)
Hello Hello Hello
(You'll be mine shawty)
(Ayee, Mine)
Hello Hello Hello
(You'll be mine)
*VERSE 1*
When I first saw you
All I could say
OMG, How do I make her my baby
Plenty girls want me
But you ain't the same
( Run it back , handle that )
Bring my A-game
*BRIDGE*
Everybody knows the way to a girls heart is what you say
So what you say about us talking on another level?
If you like what you hear then you can holla back
Yeahhh
*CHORUS 1*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I can make it worth ya time
If I can get you on the line
*CHORUS 2*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I will never waste your time
If I can get you on the line
(You'll be mine)
*VERSE 2*
Pretty girl
Princess
No you don't know me
I'm tryna change that
Baby why don't we , get up this weekend
See us a movie
I know you got options
But baby I'm the real thing
*BRIDGE*
*CHORUS 1*
*CHORUS 2*
*VERSE 3*
And when I hit cha baby
I'll promise you gon' know when you get the real me
No more , no less
Just say you'll never disconnect
(Cause I won't have it)
(I'm not hanging up)
What you need
Is right here at your fingertips girl
Just dial 3 2 3 - 7 8 6 - 9 2 0 and 1
Reach out and touch me.....
All the girls in the world , thats going through it with me
Say Yeah , Yeah (Yeah Yeah)
All the fellas in the world thats going through it with me
Say Yeaahhh (Yeaahhh)
*CHORUS 1*
*CHORUS 2*
You got me saying Hello
Hello , Hello , Hello
Let me get that info
Show you what I mean
I will never waste ya time
(I just wanna get with you girl)
(If I can get you on the line)
(Guess what?)
You'll be mine...
--
(Mine)
Hello Hello Hello
(You'll be mine shawty)
(Ayee, Mine)
Hello Hello Hello
(You'll be mine)
I absolutely LOVE THIS SONG !!!!!!!! XD
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Wall, as you see... it's about a Mathematics Olympiad.. :D
Ini ketigakalinya aku ikut olimpiade.. waktu SMP aku pernah ikut olimpiade Sains sama Matematika SMP...
Well, jujur, materi SMK lebih ringan dan lebih enak dilihat dari materi olimpiade SMP.. -___-"
Persiapkan mental, dan fisik buat besok.. :D
Soal-soal yang aku download dari internet NDEWA SEMUA.... !!!!!
Yap.. kalo masuk sesi II bersyukur.. kalo ggak.. yaaaaah... inilah pengalaman.. :D
Karena Matematika adalah daftar pelajaran kesukaan aku bersama Fisika..
Aku semangat banget ngutak-ngatik soal-soalnya.. :D
Wish Me Luck.. ;)
GBU
Ini ketigakalinya aku ikut olimpiade.. waktu SMP aku pernah ikut olimpiade Sains sama Matematika SMP...
Well, jujur, materi SMK lebih ringan dan lebih enak dilihat dari materi olimpiade SMP.. -___-"
Persiapkan mental, dan fisik buat besok.. :D
Soal-soal yang aku download dari internet NDEWA SEMUA.... !!!!!
Yap.. kalo masuk sesi II bersyukur.. kalo ggak.. yaaaaah... inilah pengalaman.. :D
Karena Matematika adalah daftar pelajaran kesukaan aku bersama Fisika..
Aku semangat banget ngutak-ngatik soal-soalnya.. :D
Wish Me Luck.. ;)
GBU
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Insomnia... Is This An Incurable Disease ?? No.. No.. I Mean Incurable Behavior ?? ??
By Grace Aprilia Helena 12:04 AM
Insomnia.. :/
Well, para penghuni blogger... this is gee.. gee.. and gee.. and gee... * hah ? -_-" *
Kali ini mau curhat tentang insomnia...
Well, aku sejak masuk SMK gabisa tidur di bawah jam 12 malem.. :/ Kecuali kalo udah kecapean banget banget banget...
Gak sehat ?? emang sih.. tapi mau digimanain lagi ?? -___-" udah tugas dan ulangan yang seabrek..
Serta jadwal yang pulang sore melulu.. itulah jadi alasan ato faktor pendukung insomnia ini...
Well, banyak hal positif juga sih dari insomnia ini.. :D
Terutama ni blog jadi keurus.. :D hahaha.. You know what I mean.. ;)
Well, satu fakta :
AKU PENGEN BANGET SEMBUH !!! -_-"
It's absolutely tiring, fellas.. kalo pagi-pagi pasti langsung mata manusia ini bermutasi jadi mata panda...
Item-item gimana gitu bawahnya... 6_6
Well, akunya juga gabisa ngatur waktu.. kebanyakan job yang diambil... *cyeilehh... -__-*
Tapi emang bener banget... Job aku dari bulan ini sampe bulan depan BANYAK BANGET !!!
Tapi justru itu bikin aku semangat ngelakuinnya..
Well, buat Tuhan.. :D Kolose 3:23..
Soal penghapusan massal post-post " aneh " di blog ini...
Itu dikarenakan...
Hmm...
Apa ya ??
Males aja ngeliatinnya.. Geli... wkwkwkwkwkwkwk...
Daripada baca post-post aneh tersebut...
Lebih baik urusin yang sekarang aku harus hadepin deh...
Hidup aku masih panjang untuk hal-hal kaya gitu...
Udah diforsir tiap hari.. harus mikirin hal yang aneh-aneh.. =="
I'm precious.. I'm loved.. by the people in my society..
Why must I be so stupid ? Crying for a person which isn't even worth for my tears ?
Longing for a person that had gone away.. that didn't respect my feelings in the past..
Thinking about a person which had kicked me out of his life..
Falling for a person that will just disappoint me ?
Worry about a person who had stabbed my heart ?
I'm gonna find someone more better than you...
^ it's quoted and adapted from Beyoncé_Irreplaceable ^
But for this time.. I won't go into a relationship with anyone... -__-"
It's quiet tiring to have a commitment with an opposite gender..
It's a full time job.. I won't apply if I'm not ready for that..
Seriously.. I feel so damn stupid for writing those kind of posts... :/
It's total pointless..
Selanjutnya... * Lama-lama ni post ganyambung sama judulnya... -_-" biarin lah... blog blog aku.. akakka *
Well, it's about the UKK.. Ujian Kenaikan Kelas..
Bawa enjoy dan pastinya serahkan pada Tuhan.. :D
Then..
About my facebook..
I deactivated it so I it won't bother me for the exam..
Hmmmm... then then WHAT ??
That's all I guess..
And oh.. I have a bunch of assignments to do.. :D
So,
Bye Fellas.. :D
God Bless..
Well, para penghuni blogger... this is gee.. gee.. and gee.. and gee... * hah ? -_-" *
Kali ini mau curhat tentang insomnia...
Well, aku sejak masuk SMK gabisa tidur di bawah jam 12 malem.. :/ Kecuali kalo udah kecapean banget banget banget...
Gak sehat ?? emang sih.. tapi mau digimanain lagi ?? -___-" udah tugas dan ulangan yang seabrek..
Serta jadwal yang pulang sore melulu.. itulah jadi alasan ato faktor pendukung insomnia ini...
Well, banyak hal positif juga sih dari insomnia ini.. :D
Terutama ni blog jadi keurus.. :D hahaha.. You know what I mean.. ;)
Well, satu fakta :
AKU PENGEN BANGET SEMBUH !!! -_-"
It's absolutely tiring, fellas.. kalo pagi-pagi pasti langsung mata manusia ini bermutasi jadi mata panda...
Item-item gimana gitu bawahnya... 6_6
Well, akunya juga gabisa ngatur waktu.. kebanyakan job yang diambil... *cyeilehh... -__-*
Tapi emang bener banget... Job aku dari bulan ini sampe bulan depan BANYAK BANGET !!!
Tapi justru itu bikin aku semangat ngelakuinnya..
Well, buat Tuhan.. :D Kolose 3:23..
Soal penghapusan massal post-post " aneh " di blog ini...
Itu dikarenakan...
Hmm...
Apa ya ??
Males aja ngeliatinnya.. Geli... wkwkwkwkwkwkwk...
Daripada baca post-post aneh tersebut...
Lebih baik urusin yang sekarang aku harus hadepin deh...
Hidup aku masih panjang untuk hal-hal kaya gitu...
Udah diforsir tiap hari.. harus mikirin hal yang aneh-aneh.. =="
I'm precious.. I'm loved.. by the people in my society..
Why must I be so stupid ? Crying for a person which isn't even worth for my tears ?
Longing for a person that had gone away.. that didn't respect my feelings in the past..
Thinking about a person which had kicked me out of his life..
Falling for a person that will just disappoint me ?
Worry about a person who had stabbed my heart ?
I'm gonna find someone more better than you...
^ it's quoted and adapted from Beyoncé_Irreplaceable ^
But for this time.. I won't go into a relationship with anyone... -__-"
It's quiet tiring to have a commitment with an opposite gender..
It's a full time job.. I won't apply if I'm not ready for that..
Seriously.. I feel so damn stupid for writing those kind of posts... :/
It's total pointless..
Selanjutnya... * Lama-lama ni post ganyambung sama judulnya... -_-" biarin lah... blog blog aku.. akakka *
Well, it's about the UKK.. Ujian Kenaikan Kelas..
Bawa enjoy dan pastinya serahkan pada Tuhan.. :D
Then..
About my facebook..
I deactivated it so I it won't bother me for the exam..
Hmmmm... then then WHAT ??
That's all I guess..
And oh.. I have a bunch of assignments to do.. :D
So,
Bye Fellas.. :D
God Bless..
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Renewal Of My Blog
By Grace Aprilia Helena 10:23 AM
Well, this is the new geezmee... :D
Since I had a problem with the HTML editor.. so the new view will be postponed til it cures itself.. -_-"
It's okay.. I love this blue view anyway.. :D
Renewal ?? why ??
I just want to..
It makes me feel happier.. idk why.. :/
Since I had a problem with the HTML editor.. so the new view will be postponed til it cures itself.. -_-"
It's okay.. I love this blue view anyway.. :D
Renewal ?? why ??
I just want to..
It makes me feel happier.. idk why.. :/