大切な宝物

Sometimes, you just need some time to relax..
I'm not a patient person by nature.. It hurts knowing a lot of possibilities that may happen..
I found some new friends.. but they just couldn't get what I'm feeling right now..
I don't want to burden them with these problems that I'm facing right now..

Have you ever felt that you do everything wrong ?
I have bad attitudes.. I know that all people in this world have..
I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice..
So I avoid getting too close with guys with strange intention.. I feel like I'm not who I used to be..
I'm afraid of falling..
At the same time, I know I'm getting more mature..

I want to be there for these new friends.. but we barely know each other..
And it scares me to think that I may hurt them in the future.. and the opposite..
I don't want them to know..
I love them all..
Just being right by my side and telling me stupid  jokes is more than enough..
I don't want to be involved in some kind of drama with my impulsive tendency..

Is it going to be okay ? I mean.. all these things...
I know right ? it seems like I'm complaining so much about growing up..
I'm worrying for nothing..

Graduating from High School means I have to take care of myself better...
Graduating from High School means I have to be as responsible as I can..
Graduating from High School means I have to get out from this comfortable blanket.

I'm going to face the future..
I'm going to face the reality..
I guess reality isn't as scary as when I was 15 years old and knew nothing...

Everything is walking to an end...
Life is not a continuous circle... death.. birth..
There's beginning and end.. alpha and omega..

A little girl.. is walking out of her puberty stage.. where all the hormonal things will be left behind...
A little girl.. is trying to be a grown up..
A little girl.. is trying to be realistic...
A little girl.. is trying to wake up from all these dreams..
A little girl.. is leaving her fantasy..

Take a little look.. see ? She's trying..