Are you actually this imaginary person I talk to ?

Figment of my imagination..

I don't truly understand..

When I stare into those orbs..

Surreal...

Are you a part of immortality ??

Have you ever aged ??

I haven't seen any sign of additional years that I'm desperately looking for..

All these years.. I've been waiting.. long enough

I wish to see you.. in flesh..  even for just a mere glimpse of your face to satisfy this longing..

I wish these shattered image of yours which is messing with my brain will stop intruding my sleep..

Back in time, you, still in that youthful body of yours..

That goodbye felt so random..

You and your goddamned pride...

Words of separation... no.. those were not for separation...

" Thank  you "

Hell I didn't have any idea..

You took a step forward...

Each time I took mine, you took twice as much..

Why did you cast away your existence so foolishly ?

You and your selfish idea.. You and your stupid view of life..

Each time, I tried to sleep..

I talked to you..... wishing that you would answer me back..

How foolish I was..

How long did it take for me to realize that it was only my projection.. ?

The thought of having you here next to me...

Holding you close so you could never fade away..

Were just plainly nonsense..

Under this same sky...

This time, even you are there..

I will reach your back.. I don't care how much more I have to bleed from this excruciating pain..

Sasuke..

Sometimes, you just need some time to relax..
I'm not a patient person by nature.. It hurts knowing a lot of possibilities that may happen..
I found some new friends.. but they just couldn't get what I'm feeling right now..
I don't want to burden them with these problems that I'm facing right now..

Have you ever felt that you do everything wrong ?
I have bad attitudes.. I know that all people in this world have..
I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice..
So I avoid getting too close with guys with strange intention.. I feel like I'm not who I used to be..
I'm afraid of falling..
At the same time, I know I'm getting more mature..

I want to be there for these new friends.. but we barely know each other..
And it scares me to think that I may hurt them in the future.. and the opposite..
I don't want them to know..
I love them all..
Just being right by my side and telling me stupid  jokes is more than enough..
I don't want to be involved in some kind of drama with my impulsive tendency..

Haven't You had enough of me ?
I'm just simply tired of all these things that You've ever thrown at me
True, I don't have enough reasonable reason to blame You

I'm just simply tired of this journey
Give me a rest
I have no idea
I have no clue
What do You expect ? perfection ?

Haven't You had enough of me ?