*Sigh*
Hello world, it's been a long time :'

Sudah lama sejak gue aktif ngegalau di blog.
College life has been good these times.
Ceritanya gue pengen sedih.. tapi gabisa...
Belakangan ini gue seringkali merasa serba salah.
Call me indecisive ~ yha terserah.
Dan guepun belom bisa menjelaskan inner turmoil yang ada pada gue ke siapa-siapa secara detail.
Pergumulan yang banyak dan kegejean yang gue alamin.
Please be good, this time :''
Gue cuma ingin ga banyak mikir.
But usually I will end up overthinking anything.
Paranoid, and all
Bahkan gue aja gatau apa yang gue khawatirin.

...

Somehow these days I am not who I was back then..

I want to do a lot of things..

But I tend to leave it all..

What should I do ?

I tend to let it unsolved..

What am I seeking ?

Who am I ??

I need a rest..

Lord.. let me seek You..

I am not a bigot like who I was back then..

Somehow I become more an more rational..

but less and less trusting..

I depend on my own power..

And somehow I start forgetting You, unlike I was back then..

Back then..

I trusted You with all my heart..

and I asked you everything...

Your Words are my source of power..

Have I become lost ?

I am afraid...

I am afraid of my younger self, who judged people from appearance..

That is why I am who I am now...

Can I seek Your warmth, Your presence, like it was before..

But still being me today...