Geez.. It's already my senior year... T___T it's not like I mind being one grade higher.. but.. isn't it too fast ???

I'm feeling like I wanna explode. It really hurts.
When everything seems unfair..
Do you know how does it feel like God acts unfair toward you ??
And people start to put such high expectation toward you.....
My life seems so hard... from the day I was born... meanwhile another person in my life can live her life easily.. smoothly..
I'm crying alone.. no one knows.. they don't understand...
I don't even feel like I wanna chat with my father closely anymore... it hurts...
I have dreams too.. I have things I want to achieve too...
But why O'Lord you never give me what I really want ??
Meanwhile my sibling can have it all...
Do you even care ?? I know you're watching me now.. but give me a good reason why did you let all these things happen in my life ??
Full of tears.. heartbreaks.. pain...
She doesn't even have to try hard on everything...
Do you love her more ??
It stabs me slowly..

Hullo Blogger.. !! It's been a long time..

It's holiday !!! and.. sadly.. I don't have anything to do.. at all.. seriously... I'm getting boreeeedd..... -_-
Sleeping-Dancing-Eating-Taking Bath-Helping mom and so on...
I have loads of fun, entertaining, and creative activities in my mind... but... arrrgghh.. I guess I'm too lazy for it all. I slept at 4 A.M and woke up at 11 A.M. and I barely have emough willingness for some fun activities.